Hey self, we just recently turned 34, and feeling lost. Isn’t that crazy? Recently we have the urge to do some solo stuff that we haven’t done before. I hope that our 35-year old self would be glad that we did these. I know our younger self did a lot of things solo already so this list won’t be easy to make. But, that’s ok. Let us slowly build this list and tick it one thing at a time.

1. Drink a mocktail in a bar.
2. Watch a movie in a theater.
3. Go camping.
4. Attend a concert.
5. Do a half marathon.
6. Hike.
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Isn’t walking a simple act and yet it unleashes so many words our mouth couldn’t tell? Here is one of those thoughts I met yesterday:

I am not happy nor sad

I am not eager nor reluctant

I am not excited nor unenthusiastic

I am not joyful nor depressed

I am neither of the two opposite poles you could think of

I am probably in the middle

The middle I don’t know how to call

I couldn’t qualify it as contentment either

I feel like I am floating in a space not knowing where is West or East

Not even a Northern star to see anywhere

How I wish I am confident that I’m just lost

But how could I be lost in a place that was not mapped yet

And, the next time that I walk, I hope that I could at least find a compass.