I am feeling extra guilty today for overspending this month. T.T
I also overprocrastinated, trying to avoid something important to gain control over my life again.
September hasn’t ended and yet I overspent $400 this month alone, which is equivalent to PhP 22,000! And I am not proud of it. T.T
I wasted 24 hrs to escape from the task I need my focus and attention the most.
These two things I am not proud of and feel very guilty about, especially today. So, I am challenging myself for a month of no spending except for healthy food. Also, of using my time wisely.
But, let me identify first why I am doing these two bad habits knowing that they are bad habits?
1. I am overwhelmed about writing my dissertation and scared of looking at the revisions. My inner soul is so freaked out it diverts itself to instant gratification, such as buying stuff or doing other things like cooking or sleeping instead of facing my fear.
Then, identify what has been done and what can be done?
I already bought them, and that’s done. I can eventually sell or give away some of my stuff that does not spark joy anymore and STOP accumulating more stuff starting today. Any amount you are thinking of spending, put them in stocks. Invest your money in your retirement and future – something that can still be done.
I already spent my time doom scrolling and doing other stuff instead of the important things, and that’s done. Time is our most precious asset use it wisely. I can start being more organize and face my fear instead of running away from it. Any second I am thinking of scrolling or doing unnecessary stuff, grab a research article and read it thoroughly. Invest your time in your growth: read, write, meditate, run, learn stock trading, learn a new language, learn how to create digital product, or learn how to become a part-time content creator. Allocate a couple of minutes to focus and give your attention at the task at hand.
Small efforts that consistently done everyday will accumulate towards a better you. Let’s do two things everyday:
1. Do not buy any materialistic thing for a day.
2. 8x of 50 minutes focus time everyday.
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