Last year around this time was when I had to let him go.
It was not an easy prayer.
Asking God to take him was not something I imagined.
I would always pray for him to have extra years to be with me.
But, last year was the hardest prayer I had to ask.
I saw how hard he was going through.
He wanted to ease the pain.
I saw his love.
But also saw his tears.
He had enough but he still wanted to give more.
He could not talk.
So, his eyes talked to me begging to let him go.
I had to.
We had to.
And then he left.
I miss you tatay.
I miss you everyday.
It was so hard to go on with life with a broken heart.
It has been a year.
Your memories still give me the same amount of tears and pain.
They say that when things start to get difficult remember why you started.
You were the reason.
My journal was my mute witness.
That you are the reason why I get up everyday energized to do what I love.
Cause I love you.
And now it is hard to look back when things are difficult.
Because the main reason is gone.
I miss you.
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